Mostly keeping this as a placeholder - probably unfiltered (note: probably got some undiagnosed mental issues)

march 30

• God i learnt about insta subscriptions - OF but for soft content? mostly surprised that peeps are paying for it. Maybe desensitivation isn’t the answer. On the bright side some folks are making bank off it. While some others realize they’re not cut out for it and quit (now you’re broke and need therapy)
• learnt about emi situation for folks in GCC - basically high EMI before the war and now you’re basically at sunken cost fallacy?
• daily prayer is not helping mental health lol - but maybe it takes time - or the head is fucked like this forever.
• need to figure out dpdp + how data is handled currently - and as always - how much of it will actually be kept proper

march 31

• Realizing that once I get the stuff - the ideas drain out. Got a VPS and now I can’t seem to focus or find a drive for anything. This do be strange - but I don’t know what to do lol. Maybe some data collection? but gotta do web scraping again.
• gotta look into terraform based deployments into VPS

april 1

• apparently life’s a fucking joke
• can’t believe this shit took almost 1 day for setting up wireless extender on archer c6. steps: Basically you have source and relay (our C6).

1. Make source and relay settle on same channel width (40/80)
2. Make source and relay use same channel (36)
3. Make source and relay use same encryption pattern (WPA2-PSK)
4. Disable EasyMesh on relay (C6).
5. Set LAN IP of relay such that it’s inside the x.x.x part of the ip. Eg: If source is 192.168.1.1 and relay is at 192.168.0.1 change relay into 192.168.1.120 (any value from 2-254
   • as long as other devices in the network is not occupying this)
6. WDS -> 2.4GHz vs 5GHz(choose only 1) -> Survey -> Select Source WIFI -> Type in Password -> Save
7. Disable DHCP Server on Relay (C6)
8. Profit? (all this circus just to get 50% of Access Point mode/wired extender)

• Also got some weird case of high latency for 5 ping(9000ms - 4000ms), then down to 10ms - I’m guessing power saving + radio sweep

• Is it normal to not feel like living? Cause what’s even the point of this -> It’s not like there is a grand purpose For those theological folks -> God sent us here to test us anyways | so why not just return back early?

• at this point, getting fired might be better - zombie era might be over

april 2

• wonder wtf waits me here
• stored proc with merge into is bad when you’re refilling columns by folding in middle. Just insert should be used. Fun problem tho - should be finished by tomorrow.
• didn’t do much other than work -> VDI is such a pita - how hard is to handle the latency lol
• but yeah bare in would be 200ms but still - can’t believe we can’t go faster than light - yet
• got a shit ton to clean up on obsidian dump repo + visualization there.
• stocks monitoring - based on markets -> TODO | oh well another one which I won’t be seeing anymore.
• getting used to IEMs - gotta try tuning them maybe over the weekend
• god i hate travel and pending travel over the weekend is already giving me headache
• wouldn’t mind if an AI wants to off me and take me as a shell lol

april 3

april 4

• tfw I slept yesterday just as i hit the bed - guess skipping 1 meal + light workout is the answer? or it might be sleep debt lol
• april 3 was mostly work though - so yeah - did go late to church
• gotta go for easter church - hope I don’t fall asleep there aaaaa
• finally got CC with 0 forex - idfc first wow - got the thing in like 3 hours - payment for VPS was smooth af
• now to figure out how to use it lol
• also need to sort out usage for VPS + sub domain for applications (using personal domain is uhhh)
• also need to stop binge eating raw mangoes
• workouts are a bit more stable for the past 3 days - but I’ve jinxed myself now
• saw folks picking up chip tapeout - designing, testing and fabricating - felt kms - but yeah that’s the default state
• today was mostly switching all old accounts into new email - did not know it would be this hard lol - someone should setup something for this. AWS cert was definitely annoying with old email, new email and corp email. But yeah got the hang of it.
• gotta do the same for gcp + databricks (these use some different cert manager ig aaaaaa)
• need to find public api for scraping gold price + movements

april 5

april 6

april 7

• You thought I was done with this,eh? Well, I did too- but guess I’m back.
• API Gateways were pretty easy to do with LLM + Terraform docs -> did not expect it to be that easy
• my retarded ass thinks it can do NISM Derivates exam (VIII) one - I got no clue how index is created lol One of hte benefits of llm is that it has seen the entire internet back and forth- so even links would be directly avaiable workbook for this: https://api.nism.ac.in/cmp/
• purchased vps - bu this autistic ass will touch everything except that now - god I hate it lol
• gotta setup nvidia driver + cuda on nix - wondering how long pytorch will take - if it’s taking long - tinygrad it is (it’s coming either ways)

April 8

• Well I did end up sleeping early. Also I think I need an mobile app - which just takes url + auth and starts putting data there. Just to use while traveling and other stuff.
• Another thing; whenever I’m having some difficult thoughts, my brain/hands just move towards phone/apps. Shitty pavlovian response - gotta break it. Now how do I do that? Same thing happens when I read some difficult topics - either this or kicks off day dreaming. Is this some copium trap which I’ve setup for myself from the fear of failure? wtf lol
• Yo wtf, committed this and my hands literally went for the phone - am I treating it like some reward mechanism? I’m too broke to hit psychology books now aaaaaaa

April 11

• So workout did helpout with stamina a lot more - went for cleaning some shrubs + picking up some 200 coconuts usually I’d be drained. Wasn’t that bad this time - so yeah.
• Dead butt is gonna cost me a decent amount of effort aaa - but hey only person to blame is me.
• Also in-regards to IEM, PURE is the one for me. I’m done- won’t need any more.

April 13

• Back to office again ig - need to get the laptop repaired - which is not booting at all - probably corrupted ram, the way system restarts in the middle of something - then does not boot for sometime. I guess CMOS reset will help out.
• Need to start applying more + estimate if the AI boom is gonna subside by the time of 6000 nvidia cards.
• That derivatives exam book is a bit boring - maybe it’ll be interesting once I get to the actual chunks.
• Market gonna be puts ig - since America changes their mind every 3 days.
• Calmshell exercise is actually good for dbs - but it doesn’t cover all 3 glute muscles - but yeah - I can’t even contract it. Gotta start somewhere before frog pumps.
• Need that dashboard up and running fast for the vps