Mostly keeping this as a placeholder - probably unfiltered (note: probably got some undiagnosed mental issues)

march 30

• God i learnt about insta subscriptions - OF but for soft content? mostly surprised that peeps are paying for it. Maybe desensitivation isn’t the answer. On the bright side some folks are making bank off it. While some others realize they’re not cut out for it and quit (now you’re broke and need therapy)
• learnt about emi situation for folks in GCC - basically high EMI before the war and now you’re basically at sunken cost fallacy?
• daily prayer is not helping mental health lol - but maybe it takes time - or the head is fucked like this forever.
• need to figure out dpdp + how data is handled currently - and as always - how much of it will actually be kept proper

march 31

• Realizing that once I get the stuff - the ideas drain out. Got a VPS and now I can’t seem to focus or find a drive for anything. This do be strange - but I don’t know what to do lol. Maybe some data collection? but gotta do web scraping again.
• gotta look into terraform based deployments into VPS

april 1

• apparently life’s a fucking joke
• can’t believe this shit took almost 1 day for setting up wireless extender on archer c6. steps: Basically you have source and relay (our C6).

1. Make source and relay settle on same channel width (40/80)
2. Make source and relay use same channel (36)
3. Make source and relay use same encryption pattern (WPA2-PSK)
4. Disable EasyMesh on relay (C6).
5. Set LAN IP of relay such that it’s inside the x.x.x part of the ip. Eg: If source is 192.168.1.1 and relay is at 192.168.0.1 change relay into 192.168.1.120 (any value from 2-254
   • as long as other devices in the network is not occupying this)
6. WDS -> 2.4GHz vs 5GHz(choose only 1) -> Survey -> Select Source WIFI -> Type in Password -> Save
7. Disable DHCP Server on Relay (C6)
8. Profit? (all this circus just to get 50% of Access Point mode/wired extender)

• Also got some weird case of high latency for 5 ping(9000ms - 4000ms), then down to 10ms - I’m guessing power saving + radio sweep

• Is it normal to not feel like living? Cause what’s even the point of this -> It’s not like there is a grand purpose For those theological folks -> God sent us here to test us anyways | so why not just return back early?

• at this point, getting fired might be better - zombie era might be over

april 2

• wonder wtf waits me here
• stored proc with merge into is bad when you’re refilling columns by folding in middle. Just insert should be used. Fun problem tho - should be finished by tomorrow.
• didn’t do much other than work -> VDI is such a pita - how hard is to handle the latency lol
• but yeah bare in would be 200ms but still - can’t believe we can’t go faster than light - yet
• got a shit ton to clean up on obsidian dump repo + visualization there.
• stocks monitoring - based on markets -> TODO | oh well another one which I won’t be seeing anymore.
• getting used to IEMs - gotta try tuning them maybe over the weekend
• god i hate travel and pending travel over the weekend is already giving me headache
• wouldn’t mind if an AI wants to off me and take me as a shell lol

april 3

april 4

• tfw I slept yesterday just as i hit the bed - guess skipping 1 meal + light workout is the answer? or it might be sleep debt lol
• april 3 was mostly work though - so yeah - did go late to church
• gotta go for easter church - hope I don’t fall asleep there aaaaa
• finally got CC with 0 forex - idfc first wow - got the thing in like 3 hours - payment for VPS was smooth af
• now to figure out how to use it lol
• also need to sort out usage for VPS + sub domain for applications (using personal domain is uhhh)
• also need to stop binge eating raw mangoes
• workouts are a bit more stable for the past 3 days - but I’ve jinxed myself now
• saw folks picking up chip tapeout - designing, testing and fabricating - felt kms - but yeah that’s the default state
• today was mostly switching all old accounts into new email - did not know it would be this hard lol - someone should setup something for this. AWS cert was definitely annoying with old email, new email and corp email. But yeah got the hang of it.
• gotta do the same for gcp + databricks (these use some different cert manager ig aaaaaa)
• need to find public api for scraping gold price + movements

april 5

april 6

april 7

• You thought I was done with this,eh? Well, I did too- but guess I’m back.
• API Gateways were pretty easy to do with LLM + Terraform docs -> did not expect it to be that easy
• my retarded ass thinks it can do NISM Derivates exam (VIII) one - I got no clue how index is created lol One of hte benefits of llm is that it has seen the entire internet back and forth- so even links would be directly avaiable workbook for this: https://api.nism.ac.in/cmp/
• purchased vps - bu this autistic ass will touch everything except that now - god I hate it lol
• gotta setup nvidia driver + cuda on nix - wondering how long pytorch will take - if it’s taking long - tinygrad it is (it’s coming either ways)

April 8

• Well I did end up sleeping early. Also I think I need an mobile app - which just takes url + auth and starts putting data there. Just to use while traveling and other stuff.
• Another thing; whenever I’m having some difficult thoughts, my brain/hands just move towards phone/apps. Shitty pavlovian response - gotta break it. Now how do I do that? Same thing happens when I read some difficult topics - either this or kicks off day dreaming. Is this some copium trap which I’ve setup for myself from the fear of failure? wtf lol
• Yo wtf, committed this and my hands literally went for the phone - am I treating it like some reward mechanism? I’m too broke to hit psychology books now aaaaaaa

April 11

• So workout did helpout with stamina a lot more - went for cleaning some shrubs + picking up some 200 coconuts usually I’d be drained. Wasn’t that bad this time - so yeah.
• Dead butt is gonna cost me a decent amount of effort aaa - but hey only person to blame is me.
• Also in-regards to IEM, PURE is the one for me. I’m done- won’t need any more.

April 13

• Back to office again ig - need to get the laptop repaired - which is not booting at all - probably corrupted ram, the way system restarts in the middle of something - then does not boot for sometime. I guess CMOS reset will help out.
• Need to start applying more + estimate if the AI boom is gonna subside by the time of 6000 nvidia cards.
• That derivatives exam book is a bit boring - maybe it’ll be interesting once I get to the actual chunks.
• Market gonna be puts ig - since America changes their mind every 3 days.
• Calmshell exercise is actually good for dbs - but it doesn’t cover all 3 glute muscles - but yeah - I can’t even contract it. Gotta start somewhere before frog pumps.
• Need that dashboard up and running fast for the vps

April 16

• Need to redesign the shitty code at work - it’s downright embarrasing and I’m pretty sure it’s gonna crash soon. But I can’t get the permission to do it - man corp sucks lol More complaints:
  • It uses pandas and runs on databricks - who even designed this crap
  • Holds the entire data after aggregation in python dictionary and then converts that into pandas df then to spark df.
  • How is this even working? I guess the aggregation SQLs written by Source Teams are saving this framework but god - increasing granularity is gonna be a nightmare.
• Need to figure out a proper schedule for office return + workout. Also spending a lot of time on planning things to buy instead of actually buying them- F my brain.
• Also need to figure out the min days to perform one exercise for the muscle to grow - keeping min nutrients constant just theoretically - but genetics lol

April 18

• I don’t like the brain’s use or lose philosophy - it’s such a limiting bs. I want to store everything inside the brain - but I keeping forgetting - brushing up helps - but it’s just the myelin sheath getting a fresh coat? - why do I need to put 20-30% effort again?
• Touching X/Twitter drains my energy - but I don’t even reply or even post - reading tax is mostly emotional triggers which just drains one out. Hmm Ill probably need to read up on emotions and the brain power drain. It just makese you lethargic? - maybe it’s the feed or maybe it’s the energy which I have to use to understand the context of the tweet -> then understand what the user is saying - I mean that’s the normal brain working, but still - is it cause the feed is all over the place that each topic requires refresh on the working memory? - Anyways something to look into later (which will never happen lol)
• Need to check tensara and gpu discord - for tinygrad + pytorch + nvidia stuff. Curious how much it sucks on 4060m - limited clocks on the cores + shity BW. But I guess electronics or at least the arch will be fun.
• Also need to look into refresh cycles of enterprises - especially given GPU’s memory is stressed higher than core - so I guess learning memory replacement on gpus will be good. Man I probably need a better job.
• Lakes having the reflection of the evening sunkiss is beautiful - but I feel like I’m just saying it cause it looked good, not cause I feel it - not sure if it’s making sensing me as I’m typing this out
  • it’s something which I saw yesterday - but oh well - might as well just dump it here. Note: Some wordcel will be able to portray this a lot better than me- that always amazes me? Im curious how their brain works - the flow will be smoother ig?
• Forgot to check on protein vs fat vs carb breakdown on a deficit body - especially since body is playing russian roulette on starvation vs stuffing till puke.
• Got a lot of work to do - so yeah - time to get started. Will update rest in the evening.
• fml I ended up researching monitors and servers which I can’t even buy - why do I have a brain like this?
• atleast did the NCH thing which I was supposed to do. did not do anything else- godamnit
• dark souls 3 is fun - hopefully I don’t binge that - but man it feels good to learn attack patterns
• oh well need to finish up stuff atleast tomorrow.

April 19

• One more day before the cycle renews again.
• Should I create space for music, movies and games? idk - also extremely high lying rate - that I’m gaslighting myself. I’ll probably need to record my own tastes/interests cause I’m pretty my mind will gaslight into not liking/liking it later. Is this what strict parenting does to someone lol
• Laptop requires repasting quickly - Lenovo technician did not redo the thermal pads and it shows. Oh well, ptm and pads are a bit cheaper - guess I’ll do it at home since i don’t have tools here. It would be nice if every place had a common tool library or something - where people can just borrow tools for a small fee for using it in that place + experienced folks can guide them. I guess it’ll be nice

April 21

• Need to look into holographs - at least how to make the light visible to the eyes without crutch. Currently it’s light modulators make makes 2 phase shifted lights collide + reflect back to eyes using some dust/mist/screen etc. I mean even laser tracks are visible only due to dust or particles in the air.
• The question of what I’m doing with my life is something which I’m running away from. I guess whenever existential questions arise, my hands automatically move towards phone. How do I even start facing these? I’d prefer if I can change it without some life altering traumatic event.
• I probably need more exposure to different fields - at least make a list of the stuff which I’m interested in and then start exploring them. I mean I started logging like this at 27 (stb) - soooooo - yea
• Oh well it’s already the next day and here I am still recollecting the past - when do I start catching upto the present

April 22

• Well yeah- still not catching up - but I’m trying.
• Need to start working on the dashboard for the vps - it’s been sitting there for a week now.
• Also need to figure out the whole server thing - I mean I can get a used precision tower for 30k and then just add ram later when it gets cheaper. But is this all worth it?
• Been missing out on workouts aaa - but hey usually I won’t even realize it after 1 week lol.
• Job application aaaaa - dunno what I’m supposed to do now.
• I wanna do a PhD in neuromorphic computing - but do I even get a chance after 4.5 years at Deloitte? I guess this life’s done - maybe better luck in next.
• Kinda wish it’d just end but yeah - maybe it’s just one of those days. Maybe I don’t wake up tomorrow but if I do, hopefully it’s a bit better.

April 25

• Well that didn’t work out. Weekends do be movie binge with folks - but that gnawing thought at the back of the head doesn’t leave.
• Gemini’s auto-fill suggestions are quite wacky lol - maybe it’s cause they’re suggestions based on my logs, sooo yeah.
• Canker sore on tongue started healing and I got a new one - what’re the chances lol
• Need to understand how to start acceptance on my self - this self-hate ain’t going away
• That VPS + a lot of research is pending.

April 26

• I legit don’t wanna go to this event - but that applies to 95% of the events which I’m invited to. I wish peeps would be fine with me being a no-show - I mean most of them know how introverted I am but still - it’s just awkward to say no. And what am I supposed to do for pre-wedding stuff? I don’t like to participate in stuff- which would be obvious if you’re reading this lol
• Oh well, at least I’ll be able to explore the place? Not even sure what’ll be there. On the bright side, won’t even make it back which would be nice lol.
• Got the nvidia stuff sorted out on nix - just need to finish up with mode setting since gpu is keeps switching but the nvidia one is low power (10-15) even when not being used - power will be drained super fast.
• Also got a new mouse - the mmo one - need to assign functionality on the side buttons. Wonder how weird helix or other modal editors will be lol.
• And the 3D printer and the VPS aaaaa - when do sort those out.

April 29

• Well it’s supposed to be the log of 28th but yeah - it’s already 29th. Oh well, time to return
• Was it fun? I’m not sure - but was it a different experience? yeah it was.
• Tired for now - the marriage is tomorrow and we returning back after that. Back to rotting in bed lol. Need to wrap up the 3d printer purchase
• That VPS project is like a murdered body which is staring back at me
• The 12 buttons on the programmable mouse has to be assigned. Using it is nice, need to setup the key combos for using this properly. Wonder if it works properly in terminal
• Rest of the stuff goes tomorrow - nvm will probably be day after tomorrow since it’ll be overnight journey for tomorrow.

April 30

• Well to no-ones surprise, did not do anything else other than travel back.
• Been having too many of these do it for the plot kinda scenarios. Do not take Non AC Sleeper bus Do not go for more than 1 day event - folks were fun and wholesome but you feel outta place.
• Need to finish up printer selection - main concern in CC1 having spare parts available -
  1. They released cc2 - so cc1 production will stop
  2. Parts would be of cc2 - cc1 parts might not even be available.
  3. Opensource for cc is open centauri - they might move onto CC2.
  4. Current price is not worth it for cc1 in India (38k = 400USD) If only Qidi Q2 was available here - welp
• I don’t even wanna remember the vps lol

May 1

• So read a lot on rack servers + 3d printing + storage options for 50TB+ I don’t even work with 50TB lol - but yeah hardware is fun. The more I read the more i want that 3d printer.
• Need to handle the addiction scenarios - probably setup multiple pavlovian triggers for myself. Current method is just throwing phone on to bed and start on the lap.
• Got another movie today night - wonder how that’ll go. Don’t wanna step out since it might rain.
• Also the antigravity suggestions are going wack - it’s just nuking all the messages for some reason. At least the autocomplete is nuking all the messages. I do wonder why.
• Need to look into htop or other metric analyzer and also find cheatsheets for performance metrics. Mostly to identify applications which are running.
• Storage recovery books have been delayed for a bit - still haven’t found a straight book - guess I’ll start from the books then reverse engineer? I guess it works on hdd since if you’re deleting the address just drops it. If you can the address directly, you should be able to fetch it. But I’m curious how data recovery programs work after rewriting it multiple times or even single time. Like maybe it’s ferromagnetic nature reveals some past state based on current status - but still

May 2

• Late again - should probably sleep soon - again into the rabbit hole of research without money lol why do I end up doing this again
• Watched movies + junk food -> exercise and schedule has been effed after the event. need to fix up
  • also those pile of clothes aaaaaa
• Thermal pads which I wanted (assorted for 0.5,1,1.5) is unavailable - guess I’ll wait for sometime
• Planning to setup some pricing monitor which alerts and stuff for personal use - sourcing data would be annoying.
• IEMs are put to good use - don’t have to check on this section anymore. Current issue is basically dealing with neckband on office days lol
• RAM prices have dropped a small bit - waiting for the enterprise inventory refresh lol. Would’ve been cool if I was in the US or somewhere. Prices here are wacky af.

May 3

• Well I realize I hate fashion industry - atleast the expensive or the fashionable aspect Mostly clueless on how the baggy pants which were trendy in the old age is trendy again now which is obviously hated by the present old folks - it’s a circle but how do you know when it becomes trendy. Wonder if an ML model can predict it - or is it brands just shoving it down folks throat with PR agencies and influencers. Anyways, Devil Wears Prada 2 left me in the same state as 1. This industry is scammy but good.
• Need to work on my mental health - been spiraling a lot. Exercise, grooming and personal health is at an all time low.
• Didn’t do much tbh other than looking into pricing of solar panels + batteries and for some weird reason, wiring up your own Li Battery Pack with BMS is cheaper upto about 200$ here. Well this country is weird to start with but yeah.
• Didn’t expect I’ll go down the custom keeb route again, but yeah, looks like it’ll be fun again. When is the cc1 going under 30k again aaaaaa.

May 5

• Forgot to write down yesterday. Was looking into jlpcb and jlcnc or similar stuff here. Looks like customs will be more than the actual pcb cost - gotta love this place lol. Local shops do it but the cost is almost 3-4x - customs route is better but the chance of it getting stuck or lost is high af.
• Expecting ram pricing to come down in another 7-8 months - at least for ddr5 - issue is that since it’ll be used for LLM work, the channels would be worn out - mostly timing issues - should be fine if I’m not driving it at the max speeds. ECC Ram modules help here - enterprises should be using this for part.
• Same case with GPUs but yeah I’m curious how the DGX systems will fare - the wattage + clocking issues on that would make it unappealing ig? But yeah, smallers llms can be easily powered.
• Going back to work is bad lol - it’s mostly config update and managing - maybe I can automate the configuration setting there. Curious on databricks model endpoint with custom data - will save my ass a lot lol

May 6

• mfw forgot to push again.
• Was not able to get the databricks thing done - slave to the algos sadly. Phone usage shot upto 8-9hr just for yesterday. I’m not sure if giving out this data is a good idea lol.
• No earphones to office for today or tomorrow or friday. Fun
• Restarted that nism book for derivates again - I mean consistency is the bane of my existence. Hopefully I can stick to it this time. Also planning to setup a data logger into vps - which can push data back to my laptop (currently). Paper trading oughta be good ig. How hard can it be (I’m hoping to fail a lot rather than not even giving it a try)
• Given my retarded ass, one of my friend’s suggested to use time blocks on calendar. But the effort required to plan my day aaaa - that’s a problem in itself.
• Godamnit the phone usage spiked to almost 6hours - lower than yesterday but what am I doing so much. It’s mostly brave - which is like a catch all for youtube and blogs and other stuff. Followed up by whatsapp - which is cursed - need to put a limit on opening that.
• Started zerodha varsity again - gotta see how long I last before dropping again.
• Need to workout again - wonder if I’ll get bodypain since I’ll be restarting. Curious how detrimental it is given I’ll be skipping breakfast.
• N before sleep is kinda bad ig? you do sleep, but it’s not a good quality sleep + you wake up tired. need to test it out a bit more - would be helpful if pubmed has papers on this lol

May 7

• Towards everyone’s surprise I did exercise - but god I’m not flexible at all. Hip flexors are so ass I swear if I get ads based on this
• So yeah N before sleep is bad if you sleep within 2-3 hours. Don’t wanna test more - cause I’mad sleeping near 8-9 hours but the sleep is not good or like you’re not satisfied with the sleep. Gotta stay away.
• Running on 1 meal a day. Breakfast was literally just water and dinner is now 1 packet chips. Is this a form of kms - my lazy ass don’t even wanna get food. I mean I do have issues with life as it is
• Tiny pc vs sff is something which I need to finalize and finish as soon as possible.
• I hope the new strain just finishes me off - I think I’m done exploring what life has to offer. No motivation or dopamine to even explore stuff now.
• Maybe it’s just one of my phases or maybe it’s just the existential crisis kicking in - eitherways I don’t see the light at the end of this tunnel lol.

May 10

• Well it looks like i like chicken mac and cheese or chicken pasta - not sure what I got but yeah. Never liked it before - maybe it’s the hunger playing tricks.
• Making decent progress with zerodha varsity - but zero application to the real world. Need to get started with kite connect + account creation - it’s giving me an headache though lol.
• Should’ve shorted the oil futures lol + LPG and other prices probably gonna rise here though.
• Switching to solar would’ve been a good idea.
• Maybe I’ll be a bit free after PROD this week. Maybe some local dev with docker and kubernetes?
• Need to understand marketing basics - mainly on how industries function - IT industry logic first since the fresher number is not sustainable as you keep going up the ladder.
• AR glasses do be pricey + battery tech is uhhh for this purpose. Wonder the power density required for this. Mainly 3-> battery + processor + display. Heat and weight should not fuck up the glasses. Power density needs to be super high + that processor I can’t even.

May 11

• Fonts and the beauty of art is not something which I understand - I feel like an alien reading reviews and assimilating and then trying to replicate it. Sometimes it’s like a foreign language which I can’t understand. But anyways, to mimic, I don’t need the understanding.
• Started trying out that m913 mouse controls’ on linux and now on to the rabbit hole of packaging it. This feels like a whole other world lol. Wonder how package maintainers do this full time.
• So starving yourself for almost 24hours and then spamming full bf+lunch+dinner together is not a good idea. Mostly cause my tolerance is low for food intake + you’re already tired af. No way I’ll be consistent with 3 meals a day. Anyways, shit ton of water to the rescue.
• Went with neckband again and got distracted more - that varsity reading didn’t even happen today. That said, I read a good piece on interests - https://leafsartemis.substack.com/p/why-nothing-feels-interesting-anymore I loved this one for some reason - it doesn’t say much but it hits home.

May 13

• Did not do much on the mouse - hopefully after prod deployment will get sometime.
• Went into a bit on protein stuff - so whey vs casein vs oats? and finally settled on eggs.
• When WFH - I always forget to eat lunch or skip it - not sure if it’s good or bad.
• So N after workout is extremely abd - especially 2N - you’ll be sleepy lol + also 2N before 3hr sleep if kinda bad? Will know more tomorrow.
• Making slow progress on varsity - it’s kinda nice - but technical indicators always sound like old people’s saying - people keep doing it cause they believe in it and due to that, it keeps being true. self fulfilling profecy? Need to looking into data sources I need to use - I feel like I’m missing something here. SMA and EMA sounds alright, but need to check the numbers or get more experience - since it’s avg I feel like you can spike and smoothen it as you need.
• Bi-directional balancing at work should be done tomorrow lol - maybe I should write a framework for normal use.

May 14

• That went well - but godamnit the architecture is so ass. I wanna the table structure and loading parts- tying up historical data to the new schemas should be fine - but will be blocked on the permissions.
• Need to do more typing practice ig - hands are still not used to typing fast - it hurts or does that numb pain like thingy.
• Gotta love the youtube playlist thingy which it randomly generates when you don’t sign in. Gave me new stuff to listen - me likey. Also are humans some kinda of parasite that sucks out the life out of art? As in the movies or the songs which you repeatedly listen or watch, then move on. After one point, you don’t even like hearing or watching that. In the case of movies, it’s more on genres ig. But yeah, I’m not sure about artworks though - I’ve never been one to enjoy those. Also same for food? Spam the same food and you’ll start hating it but yeah - probably brain dopamine hit capping out. In that case would overwriting memories and this circuit but repeating same shit give the same enjoyment everytime?
• Maybe, just maybe I should give it my all - but why give it my all if I’m going to fail.
• Canker sore strikes again, but this time it’s under the tongue, so it’s fine? Or maybe I got used to the pain from the last sore. That was extremely bad - Also this time it might be from skipping food this much. Oh well, 5 more days till it heals?

May 17

• Well that was an alrightish weekend. Mostly cleaned up some stuff - room is an effing mess.
• Looks like the certification exam portal from the company has been streamlined - I guess I can spam the fields which I’m interested in ig. Maybe I’m just looking for the thrill from the exam idk - shit’s a bit wacky atm.
• Didn’t knew zerodha took almost 2-3 days for account opening - probably cause I did it on Saturday Nobody wants to work on weekends lol. Not like I need it urgently.
• Guess I’ll be able to get 30 days of enterprise claude - maybe I can use it here? not sure though since company can monitor/audit the data which I’ll be attaching. It’s not like I’m doing some big brainy thing - it’ll be mostly brain rot shit which they won’t even use - but still. On the otherside, it’s dumb given I’m literally using Antigravity which has an explicit section which states data will be used by Google and there’s nothing you can do about it. I do wonder though, even if you had an option to opt-out, who’s going to verify that? Since the query and data has to be sent to the server to run inference lol.
• Good idea not to do cert exam’s from PG lol, the frequent current cut would’ve effed me over lol.
• Also spamming finasteride so that it helps me keep the monkey hands to myself. 4-5 daily to 1-2. I’ll take anything at this point lol. But yeah, more than the actual effect, I need the side effects cause I’m a fricking monkey.
• Anthropic has a cert for using Claude? I mean wtf is that lol - are you supposed to you use Claude for the answers? I wonder if Windows 10 or 11 has certification exams. But yeah, that’s what happens if you throw transformer arch to find local minimum. Gotta be a better way for this, but yeah. Praying to god that someone creates AGI and just releases it into the wild - world might just crash and burn, but maybe ram prices will go down??

May 19

• CCA-F was kinda fun? I mean like it gave me that adrenaline rush again - maybe after 1 year? But should’ve prepared or something - will probably fail - I got no clue using Claude nor have I used the multi-agent system. Stuff’s too pricey + no access from my company. Regarding the exam though, it’s not exactly the 6 scenarios mentioned in the site + practice exam only got info on 4 fixed scenarios. I guess rest is expected to be picked up from experience or courses. Questions were a bit descriptive + mcq had fun answers which are extremely similar- gotta reread the question to catch the key thing - sometimes it’ll be subtle like preferred to reduce time, but the question would be for fixing the failure. Also a lot of other options do be imposters - cutting it pretty close to the actual answer. Online proctored but didn’t happen trigger anything even though I got pings from team - should’ve killed teams and other background services. Overall though, I think folks will be binging the exam for LinkedIn in sometime. That said currently it’s only for Partner companies - so it is what it is.
• I should probably cut down the above point and make a blog or something out of that - too much stuff for daily log.
• On to the next exam ig? Need to check databricks certification - also got some band increase thingy from client - so Karat exam is also coming up. Maybe everyone’s motivating me to switch. Been here for 4.5 with pay under 1000$ per month lol.
• Also planning to setup that yfinance basic tracker - will move to Kite once it’s functional. Need to look into charting and exploratory data analysis - I’ll go with EDA next time onwards lol.

May 21

• Forgot to push this last aaa
• Anyways - for yesterday literally ran on 1 california burrito mini bowl + 2 buttermilk + 1 mountain dew + 3 glasses of water. My body probably hates me lol - but I hate myself so it evens out?
• Passed CCA-F but idk it felt more like luck + previous experience helped out a bit? I do think people who work on this can just ace it. I just got 865 sooo yeah - I’m not complaining. Still feel like it clutched out lol - now someone needs to drop a new architecture away from transformers - Jepa? and then we have new exams like this lol
• Need to better myself on workflows on vscode + copilot and antigravity - at least on the git push.
• Also the mouse shortcuts to save to memory are pending. Wonder when I’ll do those lol.
• VIA Programming on the keyboard as well - man got a lot of things to do and so little time. Time to binge these one by one.

May 23

• Friday - went out for dinner to Chilly’s. So I hate crowded place and I hate going out (guess it’s a comfortzone thing?). Anyways, food was alright - but the waiting period was wack
  • it is what it is, but god do I hate stepping out. Can’t get over chocolate shake being mid + it’s priced to gouge IT folks. Go if team is paying lol
• Finally did the m913-ctl thing - looks like it’s working but the udev rule file should be 70 not 99 on the filename. So apparently we’re trying to use utag access so that only the logged in user can modify it, but if you put udev rule with file name 99, it won’t be picked up by the utag since it’ll execute as 73. So when you add udev 99, the execution already happened and the tag will just sit there.
• KiCad, Blender, Photo editor? I’m not sure what to use for that + freecad i got a lot things to look into - too many things and too little time, but I’m an procrastinator aaaaa- throwing away the phone works but yeah.
• Nix sleeps and when waking up it has to be woken up twice. I’m guessing it’s due to the akko keyboard. Checking journalctl shows that the usb mode on the keyboard - switch based trigger is causing sleep again. Need to look into this a bit - I’m guessing it’s due to the USB mode.
• How are functioning people managing their time? I feel like I’m missing something. I guess having money to clean up daily tasks is a super power lol.
• So I edited some lines while I was in the editor for git message (git commit -a) - looks like the lines added after launching the editor are not added in the commit. So guess I’ll do one more.

May 24

• So mouse and keyboard baremin setup is done. For mouse created a flake repo - hopefully others can use the same. https://github.com/ZebWilson/m913-ctl-flake For keyboard - sudo chmod 666 /dev/hidraw4 /dev/hidraw5 /dev/hidraw6 Then load up https://www.usevia.app/ - also fixed the issue with double sleep by adding a sleep
  • wake layer key combos on the keyboard. But yeah, since I’m using chmod, it’ll have to be used everytime I want to reprogram it. Maybe I’ll create a utility script.
• Chocolate peanut butter is actually good - can’t believe I didn’t tried this before. I think I can meethe calorie counts required for this.
• Also my ass can’t sit down for 1min by just staring at the wall - that shit was super hard. Guess I need to work on that. Work on basically doing nothing - who knows might fix up some other issues.
• Work again from tomorrow - uhhhh maybe I can binge the next cert? I think the gen ai of databricks should be doable - need to find the low hanging ones ig - but mostly to get that feeling again? Maybe I should be doing something else instead of doing it in pepega envs like this
• Didn’t do that trading thing or the vps thing - but hey made some progress -so that’s kinda good.

May 25

• Extremely feverish but no fever yet - guess it’s a precursor to the fever? Oh well will deal with it tomorrow.
• Client holiday and my ass expected less work - worked more than normal lmao - guess I jinxed my ass.
• I’m kinda understanding Stocks when it swings to extremes (high/low) - since there will be slight consolidation which can be scalped - but good with middle side though or majority of that.
• Wondering when the rains will start - probably gonna be bad this year given the summers were bad.
• That VPS is still staring at my soul lol - hopefully I can start on that one of these days.
• Did not make progress on certification - need to recover first. Guess I’ll hit bed soon.

May 27

• Mandi is cheaper than most food items + it’s filling - unhealthy but hey, it’s not like I wanna live long.
• Picked up reading varsity again - had stopped after technical analysis. I should probably try it out to test what I’ve learnt. One of these days I gotta do that, else it’ll be like SARISA lol.
• Databricks GenAI cert prep is getting annoying now that I’m going into their workspaces/offerings. General stuff was easy but yeah, cert if basically for this anyways. Fun part tho, I’ll probably ask the LLMs for how to do a thing anyways - cert is mostly for awareness ig?
• Hikes and stuff is out, kinda decent but yeah it’s been 4.5 years and not much technical progress. I mean picked up spark, terraform, aws and how to deal with clients, but it’s eh? But given to even use my brain, I need to do cert speaks volumes lol. But yeah, need something harder to idk, feel something?
• That VPS + trading thing is next + an curation for the obsidian.
• Also couple of office friends are into running - But I don’t understand the point of running/walking for it’s own sake. Maybe it’s not something that clicks with me. I kinda walk decent and can cover 2-3km without issues, last I checked 1 year back lol. But yeah, need to get back to exercises again.

May 30

• Mostly afk over the past couple of days.
• PC Prices do be high right now - 2L for a decent build? Guess yeah, gotta wait for 2nd handparts or till the server refresh for enterprises.
• Deepseek api pricing do be lucrative compared to everything I’ve seen. Might actually bite the bullet here - maybe atfer the current stuff ends?

May 31

• Found an interesting paper for today - https://arxiv.org/pdf/2605.28693 | Looks like the learning logic in the brain is updating the first layer (input section) first instead of the last layer like normal backprop. I mean, tuning the input section with error correction makes sense, but wouldn’t that cause overfitting? Almost like if you see a cat, your brain updates the filters at the input level, next time you see a dog, filters pass in the cat features? Maybe large number of neurons make sense here, but probably missing something fundamental.
• Need to stop forgetting my password - almost every old login workflow is basically forgot password -> otp -> new password -> login. This is getting annoying lol.
• Extremely tired for the day - not sure if I’ll be out for the count tomorrow. I got till September to find a job, else I’m toast.